Turn into the wind

“When you are loved, you can do anything in creation. When you are loved, there’s no need at all to understand what’s happening, because everything happens within you, and even men can turn themselves into the wind. As long as the wind helps, of course.” \Paulo Coelho\

After several years she still trying to explain to herself what's going on with her heart. It's a long story that began about five years ago.

And she thinks it is impossible to be explained, as that chemistry which is unknown to science and  makes two strangers become closer to each other. And communication goes to some astral level. When one feels the other at a distance.
Idyll, dream, perfection, you might say. But... It's something what makes you really crazy.
Yes ... the bipolar disorder
Probably, this is what allowed them to communicate such a long time.
But now is the time of the silence ... And it's not her choice. But she accepts it. And she tried , probably, thousand times, to let go all that things. But it does not work.
It does not work. And it will not work.
And it is still beyond her understanding.
But it is so within her ... emotionally